Wednesday, June 29, 2005

This year's love had better last

I should've known it was too good to be true. I always let my feelings get the best of me, and then it's too late. Oh well. My self-fulfilled prophecy/destiny strikes yet again.
This year's love had better last.
Heaven knows it's high time,
And I've been waiting on my own too long.
When you hold me like you do,
It feels so right.
I start to forget how my heart gets torn
When that hurt gets thrown,
Feeling like you can't go on.

Turning circles, when time again,
It cuts like a knife.
If you love me, I've got to know for sure,
'Cause it takes something more this time than sweet, sweet lies
Before I open up my arms and fall,
Losing all control,
Every dream inside my soul

When you kiss me on that midnight street.
Sweep me off my feet,
Singing, "Ain't this life so sweet?"...

- David Gray, "This Year's Love"

Monday, June 27, 2005

Why are you wearing that stupid man suit?

Mmmm...Jake Gyllenhaal.

Your Sagittarius Drinking Style

In vino veritas -- and, for you, in booze blurtiness.
When battered, you'll spill all your friends' secrets and many of your own.
Tactlessness aside, you are just plain fun to drink with.

You are under the sign of serious partying (what else would you expect from the sign of Sinatra, Keith Richards, the Bush twins and Anna Nicole Smith)?
You're the person who chat up everyone in the room, then persuades the entire crowd to travel somewhere else -- like a nightclub, or a playground, or Cancun.
Good-natured hijinks are sure to ensue (including a high possibility of loopy groping; a spontaneous Sag like you is a brilliant booty call).
Your Signature Cocktails
A travel-loving sign, Sagittarius might be intrigued by drinks like Moscow mules, Singapore slings -- perhaps even a Long Island iced tea (not a bad option, given how much you can put away and still stay vertical). Party monster that you are, you're attracted to shots, like the ever-popular lemon drop. You rules pears, and you could use a nice pear cider right about now, come to think of it.
Your Celebrity Drinking Buddies
Britney Spears, The Bush twins, Margaret Cho, Lucy Liu, Brad Pitt, Anna Nicole Smith, Jay-Z, and Jake Gyllenhaal.

What's Your Alcohoroscope?

Thursday, June 23, 2005

I remember all the feelings and the day they stopped

This song's on my mind, and I just realized that it really kind of sums up our freshman year at SU in a kind of melancholy, interesting way. Here's to all those times and the hope that they will all continue come August.
When I was young, I knew everything,
She a punk who rarely ever took advice.
Now I'm guilt-stricken, sobbing with my head on the floor.
Stopping baby's breath and a shoe full of rice.

I can't be held responsible
'Cause she was touching her face.
I won't be held responsible.
She fell in love in the first place.

For the life of me, I cannot remember
What made us think that we were wise and we'd never compromise.
For the life of me, I cannot believe we'd ever die for these sins.
We were merely freshmen.

My best friend took a week's vacation to forget her.
His girl took a week's worth of valium and slept.
Now he's guilt-stricken, sobbing with his head on the floor.
Thinks about her now and how he never really wept. He says,

"I can't be held responsible.
She was touching her face.
I won't be held responsible.
She fell in love in the first place.

For the life of me, I cannot remember
What made us think that we were wise and we'd never compromise.
For the life of me, I cannot believe we'd ever die for these sins.
We were merely freshmen."

We've tried to wash our hands of all of this.
We never talk of our lacking relationships
And how we're guilt-stricken, sobbing with our heads on the floor.
We fell through the ice when we tried not to slip. We'd say...

The Verve Pipe, "The Freshmen"

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

Concert schedule

In case you were wondering, here's my concert schedule for the summer. Read it and weep, fellas (and chicks):

June 16 >> Howie Day in LaFayette Square, Buffalo, NY (free!)
July 27th >> Dave Matthews Band at Darien Lake
July 30th >> Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers/The Black Crowes at Saratoga Performing Arts Center

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

Last stop: this town

Yeah, so I decided it was high time for another template change...This one seemed more "professional." Maybe I'll find an artsier one someday.

The best part about living in a big city is its anonymity. If you meet people you end up not liking, you can simply disappear into the crowds of inhabitants and not have to talk to them again. What's even better, you can always look them up if you want to revive your relationship.
As for small towns, everyone knows everyone else's business, and every day you're forced to deal with those people you don't get along with anymore. The town tries its best to keep a high moral standard and gets up in arms when something scandalous takes place. Still, it keeps it under wraps, leaving it for a topic of conversation that only comes up under the utmost privacy. In cities, it isn't like that at all. Everyone knows the vices of the city, and no one does anything about it, nor do they care. It gives the city a personality.
Naturally, being the person I am, I prefer cities over towns. Unfortunately, I live in a very small town. Still, it's always good to come back to the quiet and down-home attitudes. I do not like, however, the fact that I'm expected to uphold this high moral standard. If I caused a little ruckus, I'd be socially rejected. Well, maybe that's why I don't have that many strong bonds with the friends I went to high school with. The bonds I have with my Syracuse friends are so much more lasting and deep.
I can imagine every day on South being like an episode from Friends. It's hard to explain the bonds we share. I can't wait to see them all again. I'm already thinking of things to buy, such as kitchen utensils.
I still don't have my room back. I'm getting sick of it.
My job at the skate park starts next Monday, June 27, at 9 a.m. It's a seven-week program. I'll be getting $5.15 an hour at 18 hours a week. Not bad. It's also a day job, which should be good.
Taking a spin through the neighborhood,
The neighbors scream, "Whatcha talkin' about?"
'Cause they don't know how to let you in,
And I can't let you out.

What if I was not your only friend in this world?
Can you take me where you're going
If you're never coming back?

I'm gonna fly on down
For the last stop to this town.
I'm gonna fly on down
Then fly away on my way...

-- Eels, "Last Stop: This Town"

And this song...oh man. Its words just say so much with so little. Maybe if you read them, you'll understand. This is only one half of the song, however.
Take a long drive with me on California One.
And the road a-winding goes,
From Golden Gate to roaring cliff side,
And the light is softly low
As our hearts become sweetly untied
Beneath the sun of California One.

Take a long dram with me of California wine
And the wine, it tastes so sweet
As we lay our eyes to wander,
And the sky, it stretches deep.
Will we rest our heads to slumber
Beneath the vines of California wine,
Beneath the sun of California One?

-- The Decemberists, "California One/(sans) Youth and Beauty Brigade"

Friday, June 10, 2005

I have the most amazing friends ever

Haha, I love what Ivan wrote about me.
01. Leave a comment with your name and I will write something about you.
Best girlfriend's hetero-lifemate 3var
02. I will then tell what song/movie remind me of you.
Closer, need i say any more? hehe
03. If I were to apply an o'clock to you, it would be...
4:20 in a row, days on end hehe
04. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
awesome (sorry i'm drunk so adjectivess arenet coming to me)
05. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.
smoking on camera the night RJ trashed his room
06. I will tell you what animal or other thing you remind me of.
a Liger
07. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.
how do you find the drive to go to the DO day after day.

Thank you, my friend. And have a blast in Hong Kong. ;-)

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

A glance into the past

I just received a letter that I wrote to myself last year in high school. At last, it's come back to me. I dated it June 7, 2004. After reading through it, I was so surprised at what I'd written, and how candidly, to an extent, that I'd predicted the future.
Dear Liz,

It's hard to believe that in one year, this past version of myself, this vision into your past life, will reach you and you will remember all those wonderful experiences that took place during the year that has yet to happen at this present time. Time is a wonderful, confusing enemy -- it's never been on my side, yet maybe that's what makes those moments you wanted to drag out a little longer all the more precious.
I know, I'm getting all philosophical, even this early into the letter. I don't intend to write a novel, but maybe that's really inevitable. After all, the art of writing is knowing when to stop, right? I just want to bring your attention back to that outgoing, somewhat curious/exploratory, "cute" girl-next-door type who this year has become more comfortable with herself and in her skin than in any previous year. I hope that, when you read this, you'll be just as or even more comfortable with the woman you've become.
This past weekend has been one of the most inspirational and engaging weekends of this year. I hope you're still "hanging out" with Aaron, who, right now, I can easily consider my "soulmate." I've never met someone who mirrors my thoughts and personality in so many different ways. It's sometimes so scary, but so exciting. Maybe by now you've even fallen in love with him. Maybe you've actually gotten over those innocent fears and have let yourself go and have fully opened up yourself to him. Maybe someone else has come along -- I know how you always like to think and wait around for something better.
Of all things, I hope that you're happy with yourself, and that because of that, others are happy with you as well. Those two aspects and opinions play off each other in a mirror effect in so many intricate ways. Maybe you're farther along on your path to "enlightenment," as I like to call it now. "We are one with God and God is one with us." It's all joined in one simple yet totally complicated, tranquil equilibrium that is too amazing and complex to even begin to describe. Perhaps by now you've found some more suitable wording. You're still going to be a journalist, right? You've always been a writer, Liz. You express yourself through words, and that's how it'll always be. That's how it was meant to be.
Have you been in love yet? Has Aaron won your heart, or has someone else? I can't stop thinking about that weekend -- he told me last night that true love must be an ongoing rememberance and experience of all those memorable moments you had with that person. I wish I could bring back the intense feelings I felt spending with him, even though I've only really known him for less than three days now. It's so hard to believe that I saw him on stage at my own Rotary orientation two years ago and never really talked to him, but that over the course of the last two days I came to know him better than I even know myself -- he often tells me not to try to explain something if he sees I'm finding it difficult -- he understands. I've never had someone like that before. Liz, I hope that you're at least still in contact with him. I really do.
What's with Chris? And Brant? And Sky, Woody, Mo, and all the rest? What about Will and the other exchange students? How did your mentoree Kate do on her exchange to Switzerland? How did Kyle Martin do in Sweden? Are you still actively involved in Rotex? Maybe you even hold an office, although that would be a big stretch in hope. How were the concerts that you experienced this year?
Well, time is of the essence, as with all things. Maybe I should get back to reading Neal Gabler's Life: The Movie for summer reading. ;-) I love you and think about you often, which is probably self-explanatory and goes without saying. Keep writing, keep being that person who is so in touch with their feelings and expresses them in such a way that it boggles even your own mind how those words come out. Don't go back into yourself like you wanted to before. Don't be discouraged, don't give up, work hard, play harder, and remember that the future is no place to place your better days. Live it all, exprience it all, and wear sunscreen. Enjoy every kiss, savor every moment, love and appreciate the balance you so heavily believe in. All of these emotions are so strong -- play off of it all. Enjoy, savor, and remember Sal and Dean and their adventures. Read that book again. You can't go wrong.

Until next time,
Liz ;-)

P.S. Always remember: it's not "wrong," it's just "different."

Interesting. It gets me thinking of that great song by Thisway...

Faces I remember, I still see,
And places in a memory hold on to me.
And I can't wait to crawl out of my shell.

Promises tell me in a thousand ways.
Moving on forever, living life this way.
And I can't wait to crawl.
I can't wait at all.
I can't wait anymore.

'Cause if I wait too long,
How am I ever gonna reach my destination?
Now I know the time has come.
It's all right here,
Yeah, it's all so clear to me.

Eyes, they open slowly. It's so hard to see.
I've never seen an angel, but I'm trying to believe.
And I can't wait to crawl.
I can't wait at all.
I can't wait anymore.

-- Thisway, "Crawl"

Monday, June 06, 2005

And for those interested...

For those of you who keep calling me a liberal --

Your Political Profile

Overall: 45% Conservative, 55% Liberal

Social Issues: 50% Conservative, 50% Liberal

Personal Responsibility: 50% Conservative, 50% Liberal

Fiscal Issues: 50% Conservative, 50% Liberal

Ethics: 25% Conservative, 75% Liberal

Defense and Crime: 50% Conservative, 50% Liberal

How Liberal / Conservative Are You?

I just realized that I've been keeping this blog for over a year. Go me.

The melancholy of departure

Found this on a drop-off box for old clothing and shoes in Bad Segeberg and thought it was interesting.

Overall, the trip to Germany was excellent. I got back last night around 1am after waiting from around 4pm until 11pm at JFK. I wasted time by talking on my phone (which now, thankfully, has service again after 2 weeks!) and reading.
Bonfire of the Vanities came (thank God) to my house, instead of Lawrinson Hall, which I had accidentally put as the address that it should be delivered to. Scott and I are going to read it together.
A propros, Scott -- on the weekend of the 17th, I'll be going to visit him in Buffalo! We'll probably both be staying at Nana's and will spend our days in the city, doing random things. I'm so psychic for him...;-P
I'm kind of glad to be home -- I missed the Internet and House, the TV show. I also missed my friends. I have too many things here to let go of now. Then again, I still have ties over there that won't loosen any time soon. Right now, though, I have to concentrate on my studies, my job at The Daily Orange, and the events that this summer are sure to hold.

Woah, how odd:
Your Expression Number is 6
You have an outstanding sense of responsibility, love, and balance.
You are helpful and inclined to comfort those in need.
You have many artistic and creative talents, but you only use them to better others.

You are loving, friendly, and appreciative of others.
You have a depth of understanding that produces much kindness and generosity.
Openness and honesty are apparent in your approach to all relationships.

Sometimes, you can be too demanding of yourself.
At times, you tend to sacrifice yourself for the welfare of others.
At other times, you have trouble distinguishing between helping and interfering.

What's Your Expression Number?

The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed.
With respect to money, you spend as little as possible.
You think good luck doesn't exist - reality is built on practicalities.
The hidden side of your personality tends to be satisfied to care for things with a minimal amount of effort.
You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked.
When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you base your search on information from your friends.

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Your Birthdate: December 12

Being born on the 12th day of the month (3 energy) is likely to add a good bit of vitality to your life.

The energy of 3 allows you bounce back rapidly from setbacks, physical or mental.

There is a restlessness in your nature, but you seem to be able to portray an easygoing, sometimes "couldn't care less" attitude.

You have a natural ability to express yourself in public, and you always make a very good impression.

Good with words, you excel in writing, speaking, and possibly singing.

You are energetic and always a good conversationalist.

You have a keen imagination, but you tend to scatter your energies and become involved with too may superficial matters.

Your mind is practical and rational despite this tendency to jump about.

You are affectionate and loving - but very sensitive.

You are subject to rapid ups and downs.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?